Thursday, 5 February 2009

A none photo related update.

Well, it's been a strange 2 and a bit months with being diagnosed as having clinical depression. I've been on anti-depressants for just over a month and they seem to be making quite a difference in controlling bouts of despair and mood swings.

The meds I am taking are SSRIs at present. The side effects seem to be lessening somewhat but my powers of concentration and social skills are quite non existant which means I am on paid sick leave at present.

Still, all the above is academic. Friends have been most supportive but I just feel that I'm not great company as I enter prolonged stretches of quietness where I just feel a little spaced out and I really don't like leaving the house at present. Crowds of people and noisy locations are a bit of a an issue too but I find time away from everything is putting a lot into perspective.

I am unsure as to the cause of the above but the doctor seems to think that there have been several "triggers" that have had a bearing on my current situation.

It's strange but I feel neither happy or unhappy right now. Just in this kind of "existing mode" which is weirdly comforting but kind of akin to having a stranger inhabit one's body and existence.

I know I'm improving but I'm unsure as to how long this will take to rectify and move forward with my life. All I do know is that I am going to beat this and I'm fortunate to have the support and love from Linda and my close friends.


Jessika said...

I'm glad you're on the mend, even if it is taking a while. I hope you find yourself better soon.

Trav28 said...

Thanks Jessika. It's strange but I think this time has really put things in perspective.

Anonymous said...

Hang in there.


Trav28 said...

Thanks Duke!