Well, it's been a strange 2 and a bit months with being diagnosed as having clinical depression. I've been on anti-depressants for just over a month and they seem to be making quite a difference in controlling bouts of despair and mood swings.
The meds I am taking are SSRIs at present. The side effects seem to be lessening somewhat but my powers of concentration and social skills are quite non existant which means I am on paid sick leave at present.
Still, all the above is academic. Friends have been most supportive but I just feel that I'm not great company as I enter prolonged stretches of quietness where I just feel a little spaced out and I really don't like leaving the house at present. Crowds of people and noisy locations are a bit of a an issue too but I find time away from everything is putting a lot into perspective.
I am unsure as to the cause of the above but the doctor seems to think that there have been several "triggers" that have had a bearing on my current situation.
It's strange but I feel neither happy or unhappy right now. Just in this kind of "existing mode" which is weirdly comforting but kind of akin to having a stranger inhabit one's body and existence.
I know I'm improving but I'm unsure as to how long this will take to rectify and move forward with my life. All I do know is that I am going to beat this and I'm fortunate to have the support and love from Linda and my close friends.